i havent been on here in awhile, which is probably a good thing. we have no more working computers or tv in the house. you would think i would get so much work done that way: drawing, reading classics, writing novellas; but alas. it's a slow climb.
so we are, what, a third of the way through lent? so far i have found out i am socially inept, and have a million things locked up. not much progress really. if anything i am far more unhapy when not drinking, because i cant exist as a person who talks to other persons well. i have been so haunted the last several days, it was the full moon and all, and now that it's past i am feeling a bit better. It's strange how that works. maybe it's all in my mind? i think i've asked that before... and always say 'duh.' but it doesnt matter where it is if it's real, huh?
im going to california in may for awhile, job or no job, money or no money, friends or no friends. i am interested in breaking the cycle - what happens if i'm not dating anyone when i go there? i cant break up with anyone then, maybe i'll just die instead? the world is my oyster! anyway. that will be fun.
this month is going fast. this week would have normally been spring break, me and adam getting in a car and driving somewhere new and warm.
so, in conclusion, sorry if ive been grumpy lately, i am learning something important, or maybe i just am that way usually.

imma post some art now.