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Some Rules and Hints for Students and Teachers
By John Cage
RULE 1: Find a place you trust and then, try trusting it for a while
RULE 2: GENERAL DUTIES AS A STUDENT Pull everything out of your teacher.Pull everything out of your fellow students.
RULE 3:GENERAL DUTY AS A TEACHER Pull everything out of your students.
RULE 4:Consider everything an experiment.
RULE 5:Be self disciplined.This means finding someone smart or wise and choosing to follow them.To be disciplined is to follow in a good way.To be self-disciplined is to follow in a better way.
RULE 6:Follow the leader Nothing is a mistake.There is no win and no fail.There is only make.
RULE 7:The only rule is work If you work it will lead to something. It is the people who do all of the work all the time who eventually catch onto things. You can fool the fans - but not the players.
RULE 8:Do not try to create and analyze at the same time. They are different processes.
RULE 9:Be happy whenever you can manage it. Enjoy yourself. It is lighter than you think.
RULE 10:We are breaking all the rules, even our own rules and how do we do that? By leaving plenty of room for 'x' qualities.

HELPFUL HINTS: Always be around. Come or go to everything. Always go to classes. Read everything you can get your hands on. Look at movies carefully and often. Save everything. It may come in handy later.

update! i cant find my camera!
also i fell down my ladder recently, and hurt my hand.
also, the guy cleaning the walls outside my window can clearly tell that when he sprays the window that water sprays inside the house. and he can clearly see me sitting in pajamas and refuses to acknowledge me.
jerk.

..and when we're dead(and we'll be dead),
we'll have our eternity.
and i will spend it all
missing you
and you and me

i havent been on here in awhile, which is probably a good thing. we have no more working computers or tv in the house. you would think i would get so much work done that way: drawing, reading classics, writing novellas; but alas. it's a slow climb.
so we are, what, a third of the way through lent? so far i have found out i am socially inept, and have a million things locked up. not much progress really. if anything i am far more unhapy when not drinking, because i cant exist as a person who talks to other persons well. i have been so haunted the last several days, it was the full moon and all, and now that it's past i am feeling a bit better. It's strange how that works. maybe it's all in my mind? i think i've asked that before... and always say 'duh.' but it doesnt matter where it is if it's real, huh?
im going to california in may for awhile, job or no job, money or no money, friends or no friends. i am interested in breaking the cycle - what happens if i'm not dating anyone when i go there? i cant break up with anyone then, maybe i'll just die instead? the world is my oyster! anyway. that will be fun.
this month is going fast. this week would have normally been spring break, me and adam getting in a car and driving somewhere new and warm.
so, in conclusion, sorry if ive been grumpy lately, i am learning something important, or maybe i just am that way usually.

imma post some art now.